These past few weeks have been a massive learning curve for me, as I seem to have found myself at a bit of a dead end. I am once again, unemployed.
Turns out all the hard work and hours I have been putting in for the past 3 months have not benefited me at all. I won't go into it in too much detail but basically it involves a internship and not a very successful outcome!
This has given me a chance to think, and take a good look at myself, and I have come to the conclusion that I am too nice. I seem to go out of my way to please and impress other people, without thinking about myself. I need to learn how to say no to people.
I have always considered myself to be a strong person, but recently I seem to have burst into tears for pathetic reasons, more times than I can remember. Which makes me think that maybe I have been trying to be strong for too long now, and my mind and body can't take it anymore. I have almost 8 years of locked up emotions catching up on me now.
So now is my time to work on myself, have a little cry, and pick myself back up again. I need to spend some time travelling, making music, being with people I love and looking at the beautiful world we live in. Because life is too short.
I don't know what career path I want to take, but hopefully in this time I will find my place.
I will also have more time for blogging! ;)
So here's some snippets of what I've been up to while I've been a bit MIA...
Radio 1 Hackney Weekend, The Eden Project, Hackney Weekend, Summer Classical Concert, Open Mic Night - Jubilee, Family Summer BBQ